Chapter 11: When the Evening Falls

Vincent found himself in Central Park with Catherine by his side, under a full moon. He breathed out once, relieved; his greatest fear, once he was reunited with her, was that they would be separated as part of Paracelsus' plan. “Are you all right?” he asked.

Catherine dusted off the knees of her jeans. “Yes. A little startled, though...Vincent, does this happen often here?”

Vincent couldn't repress a quick grin. “What, popping in and out of places without warning? Yes. Frequently.”

She looked up at him. “You don't seem...bothered.”

Strangely, he wasn't. Before accepting the Other, he would have been petrified that some occurrence would cause his inner beast to surface, but now...See, I told you this would be easier on you, the mental presence he recognized as the Other said.

You were right, Vincent agreed.

Don't get too cocky, though, the Other said. When Paracelsus calls the shots, you know things get ugly.

I do, Vincent said. But he didn't expect that I would accept you.

No, the Other replied, and gave him a mental shove. Catherine's waiting for a response, you dolt.

“I'm sorry,” Vincent said aloud. “I was....”

“A bit preoccupied?” Catherine said in her gentle, amused way. “I'm not surprised. This has been quite a journey for you, hasn't it?”

“Yes,” Vincent said.

She took his hands in her own, the hands she had long ago claimed as hers, and he marveled again at her courage. “ matter'll still be you. And I'll love you, no matter what.”

“It was never you I doubted,” Vincent replied. “Only myself.”

“But not as much anymore,” Catherine said, smiling. “I can tell. You don't seem as burdened.”

“No,” he replied, not realizing how right she was until he'd said the words. The constant strain, the fear and worry, were largely gone. “I'm as surprised by it as you are.”

I'm not all that surprised,” she replied, tugging him towards their favorite wooded path. “Looking back, I know this struggle has been a long time coming. Something had to give.” She bit her lip. “I always thought if you were really in trouble, I would sense it through our bond, like I did when you and Father were caught in that cave in. But I had no idea you were in such pain.”

Vincent stopped her. Moonlight glinted silver in her hair through the tree branches. “Catherine. There was nothing you could have done to prevent this.”

“Oh, wasn't there?” Catherine said. “I should have realized what protecting me was doing to you.”

“It was my choice,” Vincent said.

“I know. But I could have done something to reduce the risk that you'd have to kill.”

“Did you go into danger deliberately, Catherine?”

“No, of course not,” she replied, her horror at the thought echoing through their bond.

“Then why do you assume you could have prevented this? When I had to kill to protect you, it wasn't your doing. Even that night when I was caught was my choice to watch over you and my choice to try and rescue that man.” Vincent drew her close, for the first time fully acknowledging how much he loved the feel of her body against his. “We are what we are, Catherine. And my choice, always and forever, has been to protect you.”

“But at such a cost? Vincent, you were being torn apart!”

Vincent rested his cheek against the top of her head, breathing in the scent of her hair. “Yes, I was, Catherine, but that process began long before I ever met you.” He drew back a little to gaze at her. “Did Father tell you of my illness after Lisa?”

Catherine nodded. Vincent continued, “That was when I became convinced I'd have to cage the Other. I believed he'd hurt Lisa and would harm anyone else I loved. I feared him, but when I had to kill---to protect the tunnels, to protect you---I had to draw on what I perceived as his strength, his instincts. And the more I did it, the more the wall between us fell. And the more I hated myself.”

She was silent for a time, absently playing with the fringe on his cloak. There was nothing coming through their bond but the quick running river of her thoughts and Vincent pulled back a bit mentally, allowing her privacy. At length, Catherine spoke. “I sensed that, when I was going to see you in that cave. Our bond was flooded with your self-loathing, with your pain and anguish. It...hurt, Vincent. Don't you know how much you're loved? Didn't you know that then?”

How do I explain this to her? Vincent wondered.

You're doing fine, the Other said. This isn't easy to say, but she needs to know this.

“I knew,” Vincent said aloud. He remembered the picture the Other had drawn beside Winslow's cairn and releasing her and kneeling, he drew the same one on the ground. “I felt like my family loved this part of me,” he said, gesturing to one side of the square. “This was what they wanted to see---their teacher, the scholar, the guardian. This other terrified them. And I couldn't blame them, when it horrified me to know such a creature lived inside me.” Vincent paused. “I've always had to hide among them, to be what they expected of me…only that and nothing more. I tamed my steps so they couldn't see how fast I could run, hid that I could hear or see or smell better than they could and hoped they'd never notice a monster lived inside me.”

“You're no monster,” Catherine said, fierce as always.

Vincent smiled. “I know that, now. But it was easier to deny the Other’s existence than it was to try and understand him. Me.” He chuckled a bit ruefully. “We were never separate beings, but it was just easier to believe that we were…that I was…divided in two.”

He stood, and they began walking again towards the tunnel entrance as they had so many times before. “Of course it was easier,” Catherine said. “You were always so alone. Even Father couldn’t help you to understand.”

“It was hard for him too,” Vincent replied. “There was no manual for raising a child as different as I was. He did the best he could.”

“I know he did,” Catherine said. “But it’s no wonder you couldn’t accept yourself if pretty much everyone around you was ignoring your differences as if they were something to be ashamed of.”

Vincent stopped, rocked again by her acceptance of all that he was and wasn’t. “You never tried to make be anything other than what I am. How could you do that so easily?”

“Because I love you, Vincent.” She tugged on a lock of his hair that had fallen over his shoulder and her gamin smile was lovely. “Don’t overanalyze it. Just accept it.”

She’s beautiful in the moonlight, the Other spoke up, jabbing him sharply in the ribs.

I’ve noticed, Vincent replied. But then, he thought, she’d be beautiful in sackcloth and ashes.

Then do something about it, the Other said.

The heady nearness of her was like the fizzing bubbles he’d seen once in one of Mouse’s more dubious concoctions, all twisting and turning and fighting to escape to the surface. He fell into the joy of loving her, of being loved, and bent his mouth to touch hers. When finally they stepped apart, Catherine's delight echoing through their bond and the taste of her still on his lips, Vincent felt as if his heart would leap out of his chest for sheer happiness.

Catherine smiled up at him. “You're getting...quite good at that.”

He couldn't help it. He grinned back, showing all his fangs and for the first time, not worrying what it might look like. “I've been told that practice makes perfect.”

She laughed and they began to walk again. A light breeze was blowing and just as the wind began to turn, Vincent smelled it---a familiar scent that had been as common in his boyhood as Father's tea-disinfectant-old book smell. “I don't believe it,” he muttered.

He knelt behind a sheltering bush and tugged Catherine down beside him. “What is it?” she asked.

Vincent gestured towards the figures at the mouth of the tunnel opening. “Watch.”

Two boys, one younger, one older, were standing in the shadows. “It's Devin,” Catherine said, amazed as the moonlight lit his features. “And is that...?”

“Me. Yes,” Vincent replied. “This is the first time I saw the moon, Catherine.”


Come out a bit further, Fuzz,” Devin said.

What if Father finds out?” Vincent asked. He was six years old and convinced that Devin could do anything...but he'd also seen how Devin and Father fought.

He won't. He's asleep. Winslow pulled sentry duty for this, so he's covering for us. Now come on.” Devin stepped out of the shadows into the full light of the moon and hesitantly, Vincent followed.

Look up, Fuzz,” Devin cajoled, holding onto Vincent's hand tightly.

Vincent tilted his head up to look, and the hood of the concealing cloak fell back. “Devin, it's so big!”

And it was---a huge silver orb that seemed to take up half the sky. It was close enough to touch, but when Vincent reached up his hands, it was still too far away. “Can I hold it?”

Devin laughed, ruffling his hair. He was nine and very proud that he'd been able to sneak them both out after curfew. “You can't hold the moon, Fuzz,” he laughed. “But you can see it better if we get closer.”

His fear of being outside, of being seen, forgotten, Vincent followed Devin out further, bare-headed under the moon.


“You thought you could hold the moon?” Catherine asked.

Vincent chuckled. “I was six. I didn't make sense until I was oh, seven or so.”

She laughed and leaned against him. “I'm glad I got to see this.” Catherine paused. “Vincent, why are we seeing this?”

“Things do not happen here without reason,” Vincent replied. “If we are reliving this experience, it's because there is some larger point that Paracelsus---or his spirit---wants to make.”

“Do you know what it is?” Catherine asked.

“I have a theory,” Vincent replied. “If this memory ends where I expect, then I'll know if I'm correct.”


Vincent walked further, Devin holding his hand. He scrambled through trees and branches and the moon was large and bright above him. “Hey, Fuzz, don’t go too close to the road,” Devin said, but Vincent didn’t hear him.

It wasn’t until his feet touched the strange firmness of asphalt that Vincent realized he was nearly out of the sheltering branches. A car passed by and the driver slowed, perhaps thinking they were preparing to cross the street. It was then that he saw the little girl’s face in the back seat of the car, her face as clear as his own must be, under the light of the moon. Her eyes were large with wonder and what he thought was terror and as Vincent stood frozen, unable to move, her face crumpled and she began to cry. The pain of that was icy needles in his heart as the car passed them.

Devin tugged on his hand. “Come on, Fuzz,” he said. “It’s time to go home.”

Vincent swiped at his tears with the back of his hand. “I’m never coming back here, Dev. Not ever.”

Devin seemed a loss for words. “Sure, Fuzz. Whatever you want.” Whatever else he might have said was lost in the rush of air as Vincent ran home, sobbing.


The scene stilled and froze before them. Vincent stared off into the night, surprised at the power this memory still held over him, nearly thirty years later.

Why are you surprised? the Other asked. This was when we first realized that being different meant we could scare people. And it hurt. It still does.

“Vincent,” Catherine said, breaking into his ruminations. “I don't think she was scared.”

“What do you mean?” he asked.

She opened her mouth to reply but the sudden chill of a wind that hadn't been there before brought him up short, a frisson that skittered across his soul. Remember Narcissa's warning, the Other said. Some who walk in death are fearful. Cold. Bitter as the wind that roars up from the Abyss. Evil.” It was the last of the things she said to us before we pushed aside the moss on Anna's tomb. Narcissa knew more than we realized. She knew who the real monster was.

A figure was materializing out of the shadows, a creature of night and a cold gnawing evil that Vincent had only sensed from one person before. There was nothing human about that figure, not anymore; it had no eyes or face or distinguishing features, nothing except its evil. And it wanted.

Vincent drew Catherine close as they stood. “Paracelsus,” Vincent snarled.

The creature had no mouth, but the words it uttered were in Paracelsus' voice, those cultured tones that once must have made he and Father sound very much alike. “Vincent. How do you like our little theater?”

As productions go, I've seen better,” Vincent said. Once before Paracelsus had found his weakest point; he would not yield the advantage again. “What’s this all about?”

Surely you know,” the darkness said. “This was when you began to see yourself for who you really are. A monster, despite what Jacob would have you believe.”

Catherine’s hand tightened on his own and Vincent had to wonder at her composure. She, too, had been harmed by Paracelsus, yet she faced his spirit---or whatever this was---without any outward signs of fear. “I only see one monster here,” she said.

“Ah, how touching,” the creature sneered. “She defends you even though she’s seen what you’re capable of doing. Is she perhaps….excited by the danger?”

That rotten, foul…Catherine’s thoughts were as loud in their bond as if she had been shouting. Taking advantage of his rare ability to actually hear her thoughts, Vincent sent back. Catherine. Don’t. What we are, he could never understand.

She was startled at his voice in her mind but the firestorm of her fury simmered down just a bit. You know it’s not true.

It was never a question, Vincent thought back to her. Not once. Not ever.

Her mental smile was dazzling. Good. But I still want to throttle him.

Stand in line, Vincent growled, and Catherine tightened her hold on his hand, anchoring him. “What do you want?” he ground out.

“You were my son first. You were mine,” the apparition said. “Jacob may have trained you to be human but only I can show you what you truly are. I am your mirror.”

You are not,” Vincent said, fighting the urge to strike at this shade. “I know who I am. I am not…will not…ever be yours.”

“Ah, I recognize Jacob’s arrogance. He has taught you well.”

The faint smell of smoke and sulfur was all the warning they received as the night dissolved around them.

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OKGoode said...

Oh, Excellent! And an appearance by Devin, too! I adore it!

Krista said...

Hi "Olivia" :-)

Thank you so much for reading. OF COURSE I had to bring Devin into this. He's our favorite rogue, how could I leave him out? ;)

-Krista :)

Carole W said...

You do cultured nasty really well, Krista. ;-) This is perfect Paracelsus. I don't think I've ever read him so real. That whole scene was scary - but mesmerizing. He just ... slithers out, hissing with no mouth. It wanted Oh, that's good.

Love the mental shove and the self-name calling. You Dolt! How many times have I yelled that at the screen. Now, Vincent!

But to leave us readers hanging like this??? More, please, and fast.

Krista said...

Why, thank you, Carole. I think :-P Paracelsus was, I think, one of the best of the TV villains--so cultured, so perfectly evil that you just *knew* he'd do anything to accomplish his goals...and the only thing you didn't know what when he'd strike or how.

Heh. You, me, and approximately 90% of the female audience. Bless his pointed head, he can be SO thick. :-)

I'm working on it, I promise. :-)

Thanks so much for reading this in all its forms, and commenting. :)

-Krista :-)

NYC Utopia said...

Most enjoyable :-)

RomanticOne said...

I agree. You've made Paracelsus deliciously evil. I love it that Catherine is now "with" Vincent. Can't wait to see what happens next!

Krista said...

Hi Claire,

Glad you liked it--thanks for reading and commenting :)

-Krista :)

Krista said...

Hi R1!

You know, as evil and wretched as Paracelsus is, he *is* a lot of fun to write too. I'm not sure why, but he is. I'm glad he works for you :)

Thanks so much for reading and commenting,

Krista :)

Sonia Who? said...

Wow, another outstanding chapter. Excellent writing. You can make me smile, want to cry, laugh, want to push, hit or hug Vincent, feel happy or sad or angry, all in one short but excellent chapter. Amazing, Krista.

Mmm, though I love that the Other is still around "talking" to Vincent in his mind (I just love his sense of humor), I wasn't expecting that if they were already reintegrated and the Other was no longer a separate or fragmented personality. But maybe it's only because they are still in this psychic realm, and once Vincent is no longer there and is healed his alter will be fully reintegrated into his (main or host) personality.

I'm so glad Catherine is with Vincent to help him in his last battle with Paracelsus. Too bad she didn't get a chance to explain to Vincent that the girl who saw him when he was a child was not crying because she had found him terrifying. But I'm guessing she will get a chance to later in the story. I think it's sweet she got to see Vincent as a 6 year old boy. Oh I'm sure Vicky's going to love you for what you wrote about Catherine on this chapter. Heck, I love you too. LOL. And I just love everything you've written about Vincent too.

I love the way you have explained things from Vincent's point of view as well as Catherine's. The back-stories and flashbacks of old events are wonderful since it help us learn so much more about our beloved characters. And you've captured the essence of Paracelsus evil so splendidly. You are quite the talented story-teller, Krista.

I'm glad to know you're having as much fun writing this story as your readers are reading it. I'm so enjoying this story and can't wait to read more. Please don't make us wait to long for the rest of it. Keep writing please!

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Krista said...

Hi Sonia,

Thanks again for such detailed feedback :-)I'm reasonably sure (as I write this, though the story isn't over and the muse could take a left turn a few times before I'm done) that Vincent won't see the Other again as a physical manifestation. But I don't see anything particularly off about having him "hear" the Other as his, we'll see what form the Other takes when they finally emerge from Elysium.

I'm happy you're liking this story so much--thank you again for reading.

-Krista :)

Krista said...

Hi Anon,

Glad you're enjoying it :)

-Krista :)

Vicky said...

Haha! Sonia is right, very right: Thank you, Krista, thank you on Catherine's behalf. I have the strong urge to email the section in question to a few people... Hee! Ok, kidding.
This was another wonderufl chapter, full of great moments. And the kiss! I think your Paracelsus is among the truest I've read.
But... how dare you leave us in such a cliffhanger? Hmmm!
PS: I'm having such a fun time imagining Vincent use the word "popping".

Krista said...

Hey Vicky! :-)

You're quite welcome--feel free to email at will *evil grin*

I'm happy Paracelsus worked for you---he was just so foul alive that I had a feeling his spirit (or whatever LOL) would just be all sorts of nasty.

Glad you liked it--thanks for reading :)


Brit said...

Surely that's not all we will see of Paracelsus...can it really be that easy? Hmm I think maybe it could be but I don't trust myself on this one.. I am hanging on the edge of the cliff waiting to see whats next!! =]

Krista said...

Hi Brit,

Well, you'll just have to keep reading, won't you? :)

Seriously, thanks for reading and commenting :)


Ann B. said...

I know I have not commented in a while but have followed this story with a lot of anticipation and I am afraid very little patience. You capture these people so perfectly! Every word and action wrings so true! Not an easy thing.

What a joy to see Vincent finally accepting himself. Complete and whole and truly accepting that he is loved. Possibly for the first time. Oh, he has felt that emotion, but never truly lived it as divided as he always was. What Catherine has always known to be true seems to finally be coming true for both of them.

Paracelsus is indeed in for a shock. Accepting the other indeed! I REALLY loved that comment "stand in line" when C wants to throttle him. I laughed out loud! The divided Vincent would never have said that. If Paracelsus spirit knows whats good for him he will back off...quick! A pissed off, completely whole Vincent is NOT something you want to mess around with! Still, since we all know P is not that smart, it will be highly satisfying for the rest of us when he gets his comeuppance. I just regret the anguish that Vincent and Catherine are sure to experience in the process.

Krista said...

Hi Ann,

Thank you so much for your comments. You're quite right--there is much more of the journey to come (I had hopes this story would be done before the con, but...well. Probably not :-))

I find myself just as intrigued as everyone else to see what an integrated Vincent is really like. Perhaps himself..just a bit more ?

Anyway, thank you so very much for all your kind words. :-)

-Krista :)

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